Becoming a swan is the journey of the artist and has been my journey. More than merely an ugly duckling story of finding my outward beauty, it has been about finding myself. Finding my own special voice as I create. Ignoring what is in vogue, what everyone else is doing and saying and doing what pleases me.
As an artist there is the element of spending time alone. Getting into a space that is quiet so that I can hear my truth, I try to listen carefully. What creative direction do I want to take? With my head games and self-imposed rules, I know that it is easy to tell myself what I should be doing and not what my energy tells me that I must do.
Sometimes I am inclined to travel in new territory, and expand my knowledge and experience. I may go with the energy and try a new craft. Like spinning or machine knitting. Here the inner voices try to redirect me. For in taking a new direction, I am taking a chance. Will I fail at this new craft? Will I lose my passion for my other beloved crafts? Will I ever return to them again? Will I lose my sense of self-worth?
I have found that I do return to each one in time. And revisit them with renewed vision, as if my time away from my familiar old crafts gave me new perspectives to apply to them. A new perspective on color or a stronger self-confidence with technique.
It is as if everything creative is more alike than not. And each craft, like different facets on a gem, all glisten in their turn. Creativity is dazzling!
Only rarely do I finish with a craft. If I do it is usually that I no longer find my voice in it. I make peace with this and accept that it is all part of my creative journey. Maybe someday I will revisit that medium. A door closes, a new door opens before me. I let it. In the past I have ushered out supplies and tools no longer in use. I feel a sense of closure. I feel more expansive. I will make room for the new.
For me, creativity means going with the flow of inspiration and not judging myself. Being gracious and tending the garden that is my soul.
And so that is my wish for your creative journey, that it may grow and be a more passionate part of who you are.